November 3 “The disease of addiction is only arrested but it can be bonded out at any time.” ~~~ Jonah Mack

Lessons learned from past mistakes are saving me right now. The memory of how much pain I caused myself the last time I acted out on my addiction has become my teacher because I paid dearly for it. I don’t want to ever hurt myself like that again. I now see through the eyes of a healthier self-esteem. I see my self-worth and I want to continue cultivating that quality in me. I see a healing from the Holy Spirit that my inner little girl is not sick and suffering, nor as damaged as she used to be. This is an important revelation right now. It helps that I stopped all behaviors that reinjured wounds that were in the process of healing. All I have to do is forget that, indulge in old behavior and the pain will come right back.

Today I will honor all the hard work I have done to be a healthier woman and resolve to continue the process of healing by not acting out.