Reflections on a dream

Today, October 17th I celebrate my 7th year being celibate. I didn’t mean to do it for this long. I only wanted to finally take the suggestion they give in 12 programs to do your first year without being in a relationship if you come in without one. I didn’t do that. In fact I did everything opposite. I also paid for not taking this suggestion dearly. So at 35 years clean and sober I backtracked and became abstinent. It has been a beautiful and productive journey. It has been a difficult process facing myself and all my faulty mechanisms. I had to go back to the factory for repair. I will be let loose again and hopefully I will behave like a lady in recovery.

Today I am grateful to God for 7 years of not giving my essence to anyone else. I have learned that I am a precious jewel, worthy of the best!