If I could be honest with myself, I’d admit that when I met this person, I was really in a needy place and was not capable at the time of loving myself. Trying to manipulate the person to love me the way I wanted to be loved when I didn’t even know what love was didn’t work. The pain of this twisted psyche was the catalyst for me to see I truly need to stay out of relationships until I learn how to love me first before I even start to talk about loving someone else.
Today I am not seeking love in anyone. I am allowing God to love me, God to heal me, God to provide for me, God to teach me, God to be with me, God to instruct me and most of all, God to mold me into the image He wants me to be.