There was a time when I would painfully share in 12 step meetings that I continued to be plagued by falling in the same hole over and over again. I was desperate to be strong enough to change. Today I realize I AM choosing to walk on the other side of the street because I clearly see the hole and I am not willing to fall into it today. I have “recovered” a wholeness in me that is totally fulfilled and there is no need to put myself in chaos just for attention or distraction from the pain.
Today I am VERY aware of the hole and I no longer choose to fall into it.